Time-Dependent

Feeling nervous, anxious, self-conscious. This will all be done in about 75 minutes. Read it then to see if your feelings were justified; probably not. This is life. I wonder if deep down inside I will actually miss feeling this way; probably not. Hopefully no one shows, it will make it easier. Would have been nice to record and share; Look back on it, embarrassed or not. 15 minutes left. The rest of today will be a write-off--guaranteed. Maybe get some new shoes, go skating, drink some coffee. This is all just killing time. Already feeling the heart beat. I wish I could extract this feeling and distribute to all the listeners. Maybe they would understand then. Worst decision ever. Well, at least personally. Wonder where I would be now if I had chosen differently. Whatever, it is just a life.